The ice inside my head is melting To refreeze into black The scale weighing my soul is tilting I hesitate to take some choices back Decisions of the past They freeze under the pressure Of time and memory, a cast Into a mood, into a trauma treasure Winter is gray under my stare I only ask for what is fair I lack the spectrum of true fire Of joy, fulfillment, angst and ire The winds just freeze away The rain is ice The winter gray The stars are lies The moon hangs far from here The sun a dimmed illusion I’m lost from all that’s dear Stuck in conclusion Come help me out of this My true desire Help me escape monotony Reveal the higher I long for paradise For truth ideal I’m tired of all wise The world, it turns just like a wheel